Shortly after graduation I received a graduation card from my father with $100 inside. I was very surprised and unsure of how to respond. See I hadn't really spoke to him since I went to go visit him years back. For some reason FORGIVENESS was weighing on my heart. I longed to be with my father, to establish what was lost all those years.
I decided to let the anger, resentment, and hurt go and allow him back into my life. Even though it was a tough decision I hoped that reuniting with my father would fill the void that was missing in my heart.
I invited him over for the weekend and we spent what would be our last days together. We hung out, watched sports, ate junk food, and read the sports page. I didn't realize until that moment that we were so much alike. I even took my father to see a Lakers game which we both enjoyed. It was almost too good to be true. He left on good terms and I was very excited to start this new beginning, this new chapter in my life that I so longed for. This was around November 2011.
As time passed Christmas came around and I didn't hear from my father. January, February, March. Surely my father will call me on my birthday I thought. And no phone call. After letting my father back into my life he did what he always did, disappoint. That broke my heart into a million pieces. This time was going to be the last time he had the opportunity to hurt me. I decided to shut him out of my life, to completely erase him from my memory was the plan. And that's what I did until I got a letter and phone call that would change my world forever.
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